Today is the day I quit drinking.
Woke up today, hungover – shocking. When I cracked my eyes open greatful I was in my bed, and started my normal morning panic. Let the dog out, take meds, delete all my calls, and text so I don’t have to remember the embarrassing drunk text and calls. Go get my car (thank god i didnt drive) grab coffee and some food and come back and lay on the couch. Feel like shit and try to get out of all my plans for the day. Look around at my dirty condo and do a bit of self hating. On par for most mornings.
Today however is the first time I am going to accept the fact that I need to quit drinking, not cut back, not only drink on certain days, those have all be tried and failed. A good friend of mine – lets call her Molly – called me and said “we all have talked and we are concerned about your drinking” first i thought WTF, who the hell are you! But she was right, and I was determined to figure out how I was going to go about this on my own terms. AA isn’t the right fit for ME, but what else was out there? After days and hours of reading books, and searching online I found a blog that was like reading my life story and struggles right in front of my eyes. For the first time I thought maybe I can do this, maybe this isn’t the end of the world. So that’s how I ended up here.
I want to be able to document and keep myself accountable. Plus I figure I will have a lot of time on my hands and need something in my hands besides a wine glass.
From what I have read this isn’t going to be easy but I for the first time am ready.
Now I have no idea if anyone will even read this but if for some strange reason you stumble across this and are in the same place let me know! I will need all the support I can get.
Wish me luck!